Im joining a gang what do u think ?

Im moving to East Los when I turn 18 I have homies there and i want to join theyre gang im 15 female && I am defanitly getting jumped in but sometimes yoo do have to have sex with most of the gang members I feel bad cause im joing a rival gang that my cousins are in but im not that clolse to them I really want a bf that is a gang banger they are so cute bald tatoos bandana ugh my dream guys but my question is if I have to have sex with all these guys how is my man gonna take it or feel about it if he is in the same gang ?